Posted on 11:32 PM | by stardust8687
We grow each day, in our minds and in our hearts. We learn to love, we learn to forgive, we mature...
Then that is where we start thinking is this for the good or the bad? Have I ignored the people who were once important in my life? We start feeling unsure, unsettled and indecisive.
In this world, the most important thing I have learned is that we MUST constantly communicate to one another or we wont know that person anymore. Your sisters, your brothers, your lover, your best friend, your parents.....they all become strangers. This world is so face paced, children grow quickly, they are maturing fast. Learning things much quicker than how we use to learn as kids. The point it, we have lost touch of who we really are and what we are becoming. We lost touch of those whom are closest to us. But I dare say this, I believe, even in the toughest time, when you only have that fragment of time only to be overwhelmed by work...there is always time for your family. For your friends. There are times when I too do not like to hang out with my friends only because I'm too damn lazy or I really need alone time. But never lose that communication...I've lost so many friends, goods ones, because of my own selfish act.
I miss my dear sisters so much! I really do miss celebrating good old fashion christmas with them. Sitting by the Christmas tree counting down to the time to open our presents. Ah the joy of being a kid *dreamy mode* What I loved most was the bond I had with them, preparing for Christmas, fighting and arguing then making up and decorating the tree, dressing it magnificently, looking at it proudly and say, *That is the most beautiful tree I have seen this year*, wrapping presents together, sneakily opening our advent calendars. :')
I only look forward to the days we can do this again. But for now....it is only a distant memory...
Posted on 9:13 PM | by stardust8687
So you have stolen the heart even from my family. It seems now I am the black sheep. Through all those years it wasn't just about my future, it was also about my distance between my ex n my family. I wouldn't blame you. After all I brought this on myself.
So what if I am happy or not, as long as I have a safe and comfortable life.
That is what our friends, colleagues and especially family keep reminding us. Is it really? So it is alright to bottle up our feelings and tank the pain and swallow the agony as you watch the years pass you by. You are grown, you have children and a comfortable home. What more can you ask? Right..? But your heart wishes for happiness...longing for it. Does it hurt to ask? Is it wrong to want it?
Now that I am with my man who is 6 years my junior, happy, contented just everything I have ever wanted and needed. I am the happiest girl I have ever been. I can be myself again. I can laugh joke smile and be free again. Yet people still shun at him, still people feel it is written in the rules that being with a guy younger than you is so wrong. Is it? Do you wanna live your life everyday wishing you had done this or done that or married this person or be together with that person, what if what if what if-
The influence of other people affects our decision much, it is not a bad thing but you have to know your stand. Parents mean well, friends don't wanna see you hurt. Listen to them. Yes. But know what you want. That is my only advise. Just as I am currently trying to follow my own. If there is an impossible situation for a couple to get together and you have been advise 99% that it wouldn't work out, think that there is still that 1% chance. Live life the way you want it responsibly but also remember to have fun. Live it happily.
Posted on 8:38 AM | by stardust8687
So here are a few cupcakes or minicakes I'd like to share with all of you =)
